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Godliness in Stone

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  Scene 1 It smells like… time down here. Not just damp earth or rot, but something older. A primal scent that’s been waiting in the dark for a millennium. I’m recording this at the bottom of the scar somewhere in the anomaly. In my mind, it's called the Necropolis Gully . My helmet is trying to map it—casting these sterile, digital grids over the moss and the stone—but the data doesn’t make sense. It’s glitching. It’s shuddering against the reality of this place. I don't know why I'm here, looking at ruins. Just... debris. But in the ruins, I found the ghosts of a future that never happened. I was walking over shards of polymerised memories . This was once a city.  It was meant to be the heart of a new world that... simply stopped. It wasn't an engineering failure. It was a failure of existence. Holding that slate, I felt this... weight. The grief of the architect. The "wounds of unbuilt dreams." I realised then that this isn't a graveyard for people. It’...

Ha Ha

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A self-deprecating joke I murmur in delight of my loss I just need a reason Shelter with me Angel of Death please pass us by It’s not true that no one needs you anymore It is the what that is driving my unhappiness Embellished through enforced competition Bless my soul A self-deprecating joke Wet and drenched The edge is challenging me So obedient to all worldly matters Harbouring my safety  I murmur in delight of my loss For this lonely man rides again You should be building me up But your system keeps drags me back I just need a reason To sail away In a dream A nightmare is approaching Shelter with me I slam the door shut Alert and quivering Resilient and defiant in fear  Whispering Angel of Death please pass us by It’s not true that no one needs you anymore But, I just wish I was dead My vastness of inadequacy Your judgment is self-honourable It is the what that is driving m...

Ambitious Artist cover

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Prepublication orders are now open: JJFBbennett-patreon An Ambitious Artist Cover When pressed for living My skin is my barrier By John Bennett  JJFBbennett In 1983 I moved from Melbourne  with my love Brenda to Poowong To start my painting career In 2019 I traveled to Seoul with my love Brenda And viewed Asger Jorn artist as a social activist This book is a collusion of What Memory considered Reflection My paintings  were determined to have something to say An Ambitious Artist Abstract This story is about growth. By growth I mean, the tenacity to survive in a delicate and highly fragile ecology.  My underlying artistic dilemma is rooted in the normal and abnormal consequences that impound affordance and manifests self-actualization.  An artistic response to the perceived narrative and the clues that impact on augmenting a self-sealing consciousness.  The gener...

Human Mammal Self Actualization

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Unexpected interference Self-actualization A wish in time Investing in negative sentiment Self-sealing Theory Evidence Belief Invested in negative sentiment Fabric and Structure Pressed on for living I have the need to know Fleeting and impulsive distrust One-off sponsorship You Tube

Ambitious Artist RAW

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Ambitious Artist Raw no reason no logic just physical and emotional just barely holding on my paintings were determined to have something to say Portrait of an ambitious artist

Self-portrait

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Over time I have changed Through multiple starting points and many opportunities, I evolved How did authority get inside of my head? A mind forged by manacles

Leper Line 25th Parallel

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It was so primitive From the 1860s to 1950s They were seemingly untreatable They were feared  There was panic Colonies within a colony A prison for the sick Of appalling living conditions Enforcing social isolation GRIM and SHAME

1981 An Ambitious Artist

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1981 An Ambitious Artist Back in ‘81  When  Times were fun  As a fine artist  With ambition in mind  I thought of life