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I am sealed in this capsule

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  I am sealed in this capsule The transition from the static concrete of that waiting room to the pressurised cabin of this jetliner changes the entire physics of my wait. I’m no longer pacing floors or slouching into plastic seats; I've been sealed inside a capsule, and soon to be hurtling through the sky toward China. Now that I'm finally buckled in, my restlessness hasn't disappeared, but at least I’ll soon gain altitude. I look around and can see exactly how this emotional shift plays out in other lives. There is an initial sense of order and quiet relief. I see the neat rows of seats, the soft symmetry of the aisle, and the steady, reassuring presence of the flight attendant, offering the illusion of control. The ceiling washes into soft, atmospheric blues and teals. I imagine the sky outside. I can feel the collective breath of a hundred passengers all transitioning into the same forced pause. For a moment, my world feels structured, clean, and neatly aligned. I know ...
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Celeste Darkened Emergence

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Are you blind to your own needs?
Do you know when it is the optimum time to know yourself?

Not a day goes by without being in regret
Of desiring the capacity to try harder
Not a day goes by without wanting less
Of offloading baggage and wanting a simpler  life

Stuck
Acting as a hostage
Acting as a victim
Never in question
Always in justification

Therein no requirement worth attempting
Other than when subjected to overwhelming want
Obligated to described paths
Pre-determined
Paths of glory
Paths of victory

But what about you
Where are you going?
Are you alone?
Are we together?
Together and abandoned to the common cause
What is it?
The sense of  something wrong

News and announcements
Stories and manifestos
They or me and the 10 point plan to achievement
Engaged to fight and wanting to smash barriers

Whose side are you on?
You don't have to, however, your inaction is your testimonial
The ifs and buts that asphyxiate your ability to seize the opportunity
And the monetary cost
And the time to realize your aspiration
And the confidence to drive for hope

Only to cop-out and volunteer to someone's false faith
Then in shame, trying to re-establish how
How do I get from here to recover my certainty?










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