Celeste Suffocating Dog

And then when you turn towards me
My inner light started to burn into hate
As I fled backwards
Trying to distance further away from your inquisition

Getting by and trying to acquire enlightenment
Failing to decide
Cowering
Cringing hand in hand with the holy ghost

How did my memories mutate?
The ones that are no longer vivid
A complete loss of singular intent
All reconstituted into a collected consciousness

In complete loss of what was done
Confused within swarms of failure
Within this collection of innate action
Powerful feelings that are too chaotic to describe

Now reconfigured as a residue of magnificence
That you cannot see
Or understand
Or remember

I just wanted to be better than you

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Napkinart Mall Leap of Faith

Don't pretend that you don't know
When you are everything
When you cannot stop
As beautiful as you may be

Hiding in your room
In fear of your salvation
Knowing that any fall could do it
Who will you replace?

Where are they hiding?
In this sacred grotto
Waiting to be found
But too shy to let it be known

And so I leap
In my ownness
In readiness of assault
And waiting for the fall to end

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Celeste Judge and the Hunt

A self-inflicted godly mission
With the promise of finding understanding
Within a darkened chamber where loss can be finally discovered
And stories that are broken by secrecy
The stories are hidden through good intentions

So this is it
Self-judgment
Negative self-talk
A stagnant situation
Overwhelmed
Prevented from accessing power

Callous or courageous
Bold or weak
Ascended consciousness
Too weak to reprogram
To rewrite time and time again
To gain realization of unconditional self-acceptance

Making decisions for chaos
Be as an innovative free thinker
Accept and lead this challenge
No plan will survive your encounter
There will be no time to consult
Enact both right and wrong decision for each scenario
Be calm, trust, know the data and have faith

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Celeste All Dreams Prelude 2

In one breath
Dysfunction and the third point
Exempt and in glorious splendor
As our brave new world presents itself

There is an opportunity
Forgetting what has been
At the very point, you became a participant
When you stroke them down with unreserved violence

Then observing the crime but taking no action
This terror within was determined to happen
So why did I want to watch
I stood straight and strong

Enter paranoia and loss of identity
Onward one step at a time
And whilst the massacre of ghosts continue to gather
I have seen myself within those that I killed

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Napkin Art - Zombie Pebbles

Never mind my bad breath

Welcome to my house

This place where I never did feel at home

I'm rotted by the bad news stuff

My assumptions are forever waiting 

Never did I gain the skills to control this space

It was not like this when I was young

Once I wanted to depart and escape

It looked so much fun to jump right in

But it now seems a lost cause

I'm medicated from day to night 

Walking from pillar to post

I'm rotted and want to be alone

I'm buried under a ton of grief

Hating for what I have become

Never did I care 

Never was I interested

Never was I present 

My story of loss

This life of fear and apprehension

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