Napkin Art - Zombie Pebbles


Never mind my bad breath
Welcome to my house
This place where I never did feel at home

I'm rotted by the bad news stuff
My assumptions are forever waiting 
Never did I gain the skills to control this space

It was not like this when I was young
Once I wanted to depart and escape
It looked so much fun to jump right in
But it now seems a lost cause
I'm medicated from day to night 
Walking from pillar to post

I'm rotted and want to be alone
I'm buried under a ton of grief
Hating for what I have become

Never did I care 
Never was I interested
Never was I present 

My story of loss
This life of fear and apprehension





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